Dear Anxiety

Dear Anxiety,

Hi again.

We just met a few minutes ago as I was preparing to push myself more

as I was smiling you made my palms sweaty , just like that first time.

Just like the first time on that bathroom floor you made me shiver out of guilt

Just like that first time you made my heart beat faster as if it was just going to pop right out

Just like that first time when I wanted to be the constellation up high you told me I couldn’t shine that bright

Just like that first time when I wanted to sleep you woke me up with nightmares a sweaty blanket and a dark black sky

Just like that first time you still haunt me and just like that first time I want to escape.